Saturday, May 2, 2009
This day last year was crucial in the turning of events.
A decision was made and by noon I was waiting on the driveway with all my luggage (three large suitcases and a backpack) for a cab to pick me up to take me to a local hotel. It would be there that I'd make a plan for my next step.
It was also there that I contemplated the course of events that morning. The details don't matter, but the learning does. I found myself in a place of immense uncertainty, but knew that everything was going to be ok, and in fact, there's a greater reason for my journey that was across the horizon, momentarily out of my vision.
In spite of this knowing, I still felt numb. I also felt a little afraid of where to go and who to call. So I stayed still in my own space for a few days - journalling, praying, and spending a lot of time in inner reflection.
I felt a struggle within, as my mind chattered away with it's rules and fears. My spirit stayed strong. My heart just wanted to be nurtured, held, hugged and healed from the emotional shards embedded from the emotional bomb that had gone off earlier that day.
I cried, and I cried. I drank coffee and wine. I slept. I spent time connecting with my spirit.
I also phoned home.
What was I going to do next?
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We've all had exeriences in life where things don't turn out to be the way we plan them to be. But everything happens the way it needs to.
This turning point for me, was a GIFT, as is everything in life.
I soon learned to stop labelling events or outcomes as 'good' or 'bad', rather as 'just is'.
For what may look like right now, as a 'bad' turn, was in fact a GREAT turn in events... as you will see in the book, with the adventures and learnings that ensue.